February 2012
just looked at my phone
devotedtokayla:
i have 4 missed text messages , all paragraphs about how much i mean to you & how much you love me. and it’s like idk. i dont know how to respond, bc in my mind, i really want to give up. like im really done. i dont want to do this anymore, i dont wana fight, be angry all the time. like i cant do this shit anymore :(
but then my heart wants to fight with my mind, bc my...
growingupstrong:
Jesus, I will follow you.: Jesus: From Genesis to Revelation
jesusiwillfollowyou:
In the Old Testament:
- In Genesis, He is the Creator God.
- In Exodus, He is the Redeemer.
- In Leviticus, He is your sanctification.
- In Numbers, He is your guide.
- In Deuteronomy, He is your teacher.
- In Joshua, He is the mighty conqueror.
- In Judges, He gives victory over enemies.
...
Mom: What's wrong?
My mind: I used to do so well in school but I'm not anymore.
My mind: The people I call friends, aren't my actual friends.
My mind: I'm constantly feeling alone.
My mind: I'm starting to look at myself different.
My mind: Nothing feels the same anymore.
My mind: I feel like I'm going to fail at anything I try to do.
My mind: I haven't been eating that much and I'm hungry all the time.
My mind: I feel like no one cares about me.
My mind: I just wanna sleep all day and never wake up.
Me: Oh nothing I'm fine.
I just do art because I’m ugly and there’s nothing else for me to do.
– Andy Warhol (via okmax)
January 2012
Goodbye my almost lover ...
I'M NOW AN EMR / MRT :DDD
Randomly started crying and shaking now I can’t stop :’( everything’s so hard
I just want someone afraid to lose me .
Someone I can trust with my heart , someone who’s cautious with it.
Put one of these in my ask.
Dear person I hate,
Dear person I like,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear bestfriend,
Dear *anyone*,
Dear mom,
Dear dad,
Dear future me,
Dear past me,
DO IT.
please ?(:
I tend to over analyze situations because I’m afraid of what will happen...
Why being a girl isn't working out for me:
Body: Oh, guess what time of the month it is!
Me: Please, god, no--
Ovaries: ALL SYSTEMS GOOOOOOOO!!!
Brain: I quit. i quit. kittens and cupcakes and no one loves me. oh my god salty snacks i am furious
Me: Please, guys, calm down--
Face: TIME TO RUIN EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER LIKED ABOUT ME. I'M GROWING MOUNTAINS, BITCHES.
Brain: And now I'm ugly! shbdksdnksbn
Torso: Time to practice labor. cramp this bitch up. GO GO GO GO GO GO
Me: STOP IT FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!
Stomach: lol clothes cant fit you anymore. you are bloated. you are now a balloooooooon!
Me: I hate you all
Brain: I KNOW EVERYONE HATES ME I AM SO DEPRESSED. we need to procreate.
Face: Lol, i'm not done yet.
Uterus: what did i ever do to deserve this?
Brain: you just wait uterus. they're going to make you hold a baby for like 9 months straight.
Uterus: You mother fuckers.
Torso: CONTRACT!
Me: I quit being female, I am now a llama.
Brain: Me gusta.